June 17, 2002
3 Little Kittens Minus 1

One of my babies had to be put to sleep tonight. *I DON'T know who it is yet* Everyone at work gets them confused and told me it had white spots on its chest. To me, that means it was Faye Faye. Ein has a white tail tip and Edward has orange on her chest.

I got a call, of course right before dinner, that the kitten was agonal. How can this be happening? This kitten was up running around and playing all day with us. I don't understand why this happened. Dr V thinks it might be panleukopenia. *aka-feline distemper/parvo*

It was so sweet, this kitten. Always wanted to be held and loved, and it just collapsed and wanted to jump in the line of reincarnation.

I was telling Scott last week on a theory of mine when it comes to death with small things like cats, especially kittens. It just wasn't meant to be. The higher being all of a sudden did an *OH SHIT* and said, "Excuse me little kitten, we made a mistake, you were meant for higher things. We are going to put you back in line OK?" Of course the kitten thinks, "Greater things? OK, I'll go, but will there be toys there to play with while I stand in line? " "Of course. It won't be a long wait, but there will be toys to keep you busy."

But do they always have to go in such a bad way?

Of course I am upset. I feel like I have failed again and added another cat to my never ending circle. Scott says I help them over. I do a good thing.

Posted by Ellen at June 17, 2002 09:05 PM

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the hardest thing, by far, is when they leave us ... but i've - slowly - come to the realization that it is harder for US (who remain behind) than it is for THEM ... death itself is just as miraculous & natural as being born - the dying process, is the difficult part

... i've heard the one question universal to all who stand at death's door is: "was i loved?" ... for the tiny senient being who was this little kitten, if only so briefly, the answer - because of your presence in its life - is: a resounding 'yes!' ... you have not failed ...

"That LOVE is ALL there is, is ALL we know of LOVE." - Emily Dickinson ...

Posted by: nocalgal on June 18, 2002 12:02 AM

I am so sorry E.When you love animals as much as you do you accept the fun, joy and love but you also have to deal with the pain. In no way do you ever fail your little charges. They are lucky to have you in their lives even for just a moment.

I also feel very lucky to have you in my life, my little Eyetalian Yankee Princess.

Posted by: Pat on June 18, 2002 12:15 AM

I'm so sorry to hear about your kitten!
You did not fail: you gave it love while it was here.


Posted by: maru on June 18, 2002 11:54 AM

You do great things.

Posted by: Pam on December 19, 2002 05:47 PM
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